“I think God is moving me into a place of isolation.” Those ten words have resurfaced several times since having a conversation about life with a friend about two weeks ago. The words pierced my ear on the other side of the phone as the desperation lingered in her voice. While I was in her “Amen” corner and cheering her on for this revelation and how she was handling it, it didn’t dawn upon me until drafting this post that I may be in the same exact place. While I could praise her because she realized that quickly, I find myself reveling in confusion.
A personal moment of reflection led me to dig deep to question whether or not God was doing the same for me as He is for her. I came to this when I reflected on my 2018 in the realm of this corner and Cadacia’s real life Corner. Often times throughout this year, I found myself questioning just about everything, from relationships to beliefs, dispositions that I’ve maintained, routines, habits along with a host of other things. I wasn’t sure if it was ok to put everything in question because I had been comfortable all along. I realize, however, that this is a part of growth. Much like we mentioned in our “Lost Ones” episode about the loss of friends being apart of growth, I feel like the same applies for abandonment of the norm.
I, therefore, close out the year of Cadacia’s Corner in a state of isolation.